Borderline Bondage

Written Piece

The following audio clip is a reading of the piece I recorded in 2010. I transformed the tone of the pitch in order to achieve the sound of a child’s voice.

April 16th, 2010


Run, Run
the shadows run down and around
drowning past faded tears and cumulated fears
If I hide here I can buy myself time

Tip, toe
and take my place
clench my fists and hide my face
Drenched this place with his carious crooked stench

Click, clack
slip of the buckle
wrapped tight around his knuckles
Hopefully this time he won’t see me cringe

Whip, splash
It’s almost over
Please please please sober
up from this mental encasement
Take one more breath and hold it tight

Drip, drop
Dry of emotions above my head my spirit will be floating
Away I shall go and never return

Run, Run
He’s not looking now
shh quiet to not make a sudden sound
Wrap my things in a blanket and be on my way

Kiss, Kiss
Mommy know that I’ll always love you
Clear through the fog I’m almost closer to you
I picked these flowers fresh from your garden

Back, Back
It was only my imagination
Yet one day I still will have faith in
The light that shines beyond this corner

Video Interpretation

Excerpt from my process blog about this video interpretation:

“In present day, I like the piece as an audio piece alone. At first, when I would just even see a preview of the video I would cringe thinking about what an “amateur piece” it was given the imagery I recorded and the way I edited it. Sometimes video can hurt a piece more than help it, especially when it feels like you’re spoon feeding emotional drama to your viewer.

For example there are some pieces that are far better performed live rather than listened to as an audio recording. Sometimes recording can feel too staged, manipulated, or edited. When you’re at a venue with a performer the ambience, such as the size of the room or the lighting, can help setup the mood. Overall, it’s the rawness in the deliver of the performance that moves you in that moment. You can’t always get that across in a recording even if it’s a recording of the performance. It sounds obvious, but everything about being there in that moment is part of the experience.

Though I’m not the biggest fan of the video I created for this piece, granted it was over 10 years ago, I’d still like to share it with you. I created a puppet out of recycled fabric and recorded it and myself in similar positions. After watching it a few times through, it grew on me and I feel half way decent about it, but it still feels far too saturated in emotion when compared to the audio on its own.”

Scrambled Eggs: FilAm History Spoken Word

Original Performance

This is an original spoken word piece written by Alex Cena, Marco Mercado, Darius Imperial Jr., and myself which focused on Filipino American history. There were variations of this performance, but this is the first time we performed this piece which was at SIGUE, a multigenerational symposium focused on Filipino American Identity.

It’s called scrambled eggs because it’s a mixture of our own personal pieces chopped up and mixed together along with a few ad-libs along the way. We each had our own experience with exploring and discovering our Filipino American identity.

VCU FIND Inc. Dialogue

Second performance of the piece performed in 2009 by (left to right: Lee Garduque, myself, Darius Imperial Jr.)

Generation Why Spoken Word

A spoken word piece written in 2009 about the shifting trend of genres of music. Below is a version I updated and performed in 2013 at an open mic last minute.

Below was the first version of the piece I debuted in 2009.